Monday, June 30, 2014


This Day's Thought from The Ranch
The main thing is this: we should never blame anyone or anything for our defeats. No matter how evil their intentions may be, they are altogether unable to harm us until we begin to blame them and use them as excuses for our own unbelief.
A. W. Tozer

This Day's Verse
For he is not a God of the dead, but of the living: for all live unto him.
Luke 20:38
The King James Version

This Day's Smile
God isn’t a talent scout looking for someone who is “good enough” or “strong enough.” He is looking for someone with a heart set on Him, and He will do the rest.

Vance Havner

Friday, June 27, 2014


Prayer gives a man the opportunity of
getting to know a gentleman he hardly ever meets.
I do not mean his maker, but himself.
~William Inge


This rather profound statement hit me between the ears.  I had never quite thought about it, but indeed, one does learn more about oneself through a lot of prayer.

Think of how you pray. Do you pray the "same words" day in and day out? Or do you meditate on people and petitions, with full faith that God is reading your mind and knows your needs?

I heard something interesting many years ago, and I have drawn my own conclusion, and it lingers there in the back of my mind when I pray.  I pray the Our Father, The Rosary, Glory Be - all out loud.  But when it comes to my personal prayers, the needs and wishes for myself and others, I am silent. Why? Because what I heard in my spiritual travels was to not pray out loud for the devil cannot read your mind like God can.  I would like to believe that is true because I think about a lot of things prayerfully in silence and I would never want satan to know those prayers and thoughts because he would just love to throw a wrench into the mix and cause a debacle to obstruct and discourage me from my course.

I have learned through prayer how I really think.  And, I would say that I do not think now as I did a few years ago. I used to BEG God for the things that others needed, for the things that I needed, the help, the "hold me up" things.  It was naive of me because God heard me the first time.  I have practiced very hard for a very long time and have finally found a place of strong FAITH where I can give my problems to God, and then forget about them. Do you think this makes Him very happy?  Of course it does!  That is what faith is about, not just the believing without seeing, but giving your troubles to him and asking him to take care of them, and then letting go of them.  What a huge relief this was on my stress level.

I have learned that the more I know, the more earnest I am in my spiritual journey.  It is as it should be, almost.  I am not perfect; far from it.  If everything were perfect, what would we have for goals?  Spiritual goals.  I have learned that by leaving some things to God, I can enjoy life again, where before, I lived my days in depression and tears about my problems.  By letting go, I have helped myself, and I have helped those for whom I have spent countless hours praying, crying, worrying, begging God to please "fix it".  What a much more wonderful existence I have now. 

In him and through faith in him we may approach
God with freedom and confidence.
~Ephesians 3:12


This verse rather sums up quite eloquently what I have tried to explain above.  I feel free, free from worry and pain, free to talk to him 24/7, any minute or hour. And I have all the CONFIDENCE in God, that he hears me the first time and I do not need to continue asking over and over for the same things.  I have confidence in God; he knew me before I was in the womb; he has been with me all of my life; and to add to this confidence is the fact that when I look back on my younger adult years, I realize that God has been there all the way, just waiting for little me to turn to him, ask him to fill my heart with The Holy Spirit, to praise His Son, Jesus Christ, and to turn my life toward the narrow path to Heaven.

There is NO ONE on this earth who would stick with a person for years and watch them sin and make sinful mistakes over and over, and yet he protected me from myself many, many times over.  It is mind blowing that there is this being who created the littlest ant to dinosaurs to all the zillions of plants and flowers, to all these human beings and no two being alike, to taking care of the billions of people on this earth each day, to more than anyone human can fathom.  It is mind-boggling.

But God is real.  And he is your Father first, and you can call on him no matter what you have done, or what you may need.  He never sleeps, he always hears. And remember about those prayers:  No doesn't mean never; it means not now; I have something better in mind for you later on.  Have confidence and believe!

The Peace of Christ Be With Each of You,


Peace be with you!

Happy Feast of the Sacred Heart! 
We hope that this novena has been a holy experience for you that has helped you align your heart more fully with the Sacred Heart of Jesus. 
Now, we would like to close this novena with our final prayer. 
Let us pray...

Dear Lord Jesus, I have specific requests that may only partially fill the infinite needs and desires that are in my heart. I ask that You answer me not only for those requests but also for a greater reliance on You to satisfy the needs and desires that You have given me.

Please grant the prayers of all those who prayed this novena with me. Bless them with Your love and make them holy!

May I seek You with a sincere heart knowing that it will profit me nothing if I gain the whole world yet lose my soul.

So, help me to see Your good and gracious purpose in all my trials. Help me to see Your blessings in every day and help me to love You more.

Thank You for everything, Lord Jesus!

Thank you for praying with us!

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Wednesday, June 25, 2014


Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have. I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.
~Philippians 4:11-13


My grandsons both play baseball and have since they were old enough to sign up.  Under the bill of their caps is the reference to their favorite scripture. I'd never seen anything like this, but boy was I proud of them.  Philippians 4:13 happens to be one of the boy's verse written under the bill of his baseball hat.  But I had never read verses 11-13.  Oh how very much this reminds me of ME!

I was never in need. My mother and dad saw to that.  And when I was on my own raising a little girl all alone in California, it was just me - me whose paycheck paid for our lives, so I learned very early what it's like to do without anything that wasn't absolutely necessary. My cart at the grocery store each week contained the same thing as last week and the weeks before that.  I had rent to pay, and I received no child support.  It was easier to tell this poor excuse for a man who had abused and beaten me several times, to just stay away and you can keep your money.  He did.  

From there I learned to live on almost nothing - pay rent, buy groceries, pay utilities and day care for my daughter so that I could earn a living.  My sweet mother would send care packages full of clothes for my daughter periodically, so this was one thing I didn't have to worry over.

And this wasn't the only period in my life when I had to live with practically nothing.  But it seemed when I was down to my last penny, God always provided away, even when He was not asked.  I wasn't much of a Christian back then, many years ago.

I am proof positive that you can do anything that you set your mind to do.  You can choose to be happy or sad; up or down; nice or mean; generous in spirit or selfish to the point that no one wants to be your friend.  There are all these things and more in life that anyone can learn to cope with, so don't be trying to fool everyone into "donating" to "your cause".  You CAN and SHOULD take care of yourself and your business.

Just remember:  "I can do everything through Christ, who strengthens me."  No more excuses. Get with the program and you might find that you are both thankful and proud of yourself at what you can do with your life's station.



33 Years of apparitions in Medjugorje

Today, June 25, 2014, marks 33 years since Our Lady first appeared to six young people in Medjugorje. Although much has changed, the graces and fruits continue to multiply.

As she does on the 25th of every month, Our Lady gave a message to the visionary Marija.

"Dear children! The Most High is giving me the grace that I can still be with you and to lead you in prayer towards the way of peace. Your heart and soul thirst for peace and love, for God and His joy. Therefore, little children, pray, pray, pray and in prayer you will discover the wisdom of living. I bless you all and intercede for each of you before my Son Jesus. Thank you for having responded to my call."

June 25, 2014 Annual Apparition to Ivanka

At her last daily apparition on May 7, 1985, Our Lady confided to Ivanka the 10th secret and told her that she would have an apparition once a year on the anniversary of the apparitions. It was that way also this year.

The apparition, which lasted 4 minutes, took place at Ivanka’s family home. Only Ivanka’s family was present at the apparition. After the apparition, Ivanka said: "Our Lady gave us her motherly blessing."



And the grace of our Lord was exceedingly abundant 
with faith and love which is in Christ Jesus.


It's been quite some time since I attended RCIA classes in order to be brought into the faith of The Holy Roman Catholic Church.  I vaguely recall discussion of "grace" but it has eluded me, it's actual meaning, and thus I researched it more recently.  And this short essay doesn't even chip more than the tip of the ice wherein lies the Grace of God.  Perhaps it will instill a desire for you to do your own research further.

Without the granting of Graces from God in Heaven, our souls would be destined for an eternal disconnection from God, no attention, no more hope of prayers answered, just an existence like, i.e., in a black hole.  That is how I imagine it.


And he said to me, My grace is sufficient
for you: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.  
Most gladly therefore will 
I rather glory in my infirmities, 
that the power of Christ may rest on me.


God's Graces are just as sufficient to the human soul and body as His Love and Forgiveness. When will we learn that if we follow Jesus Christ and have faith in God, we will receive His just Graces that will sustain us to live a more Christlike life?  And therefore, be prepared to go straight to heaven when we die.

Surely the murderers, burglars, abusers, cheaters, etc., never give a thought to God.  And when they do meet him, they will fall to the ground in trembling and begging for His forgiveness for their lives of sin.  Nobody knows what God will do; only God.

So boast gladly of your infirmities, for in Jesus Christ you are forgiven and made perfect. Confess your sins before man.

But I have somewhat digressed - I was talking about Grace or being "in a State of Grace."

There are actually two kinds of Grace:  Sanctifying and actual.  Sanctifying Grace given by God stays with your soul always.  Actual graces is like the gas that runs the vehicle called Sanctifying Grace, and it may change in other forms as required.

What if you went on a rocket into space.  What would you need?  Of course, you must have oxygen.  Without the oxygen, you would die immediately.  In order to overcome this, you would have to have an oxygen system, something supernatural on your space rocket in order to remain alive.  

Your soul is much the same supernatural state.  In this state, it would not be fit for heaven. Our souls do not have the right equipment, and if one dies with his/her soul in its natural state, heaven will not be an option for you.  You need supernatural life to live in Heaven, not just your soul in its natural state.  This is an example of what is meant by sanctifying grace. And the reason you will need sanctifying grace in heaven is because at that point you are in perfect and absolute union with God, and God is the source of all life.

If your soul is in a state of mortal sin when you die, you cannot come into heaven.  You may through cleansing live a time in Purgatory, and then be granted access to the Kingdom of God. The best one can do is to pray for others while they are in purgatory.  If not, then your soul's eternal separation from God, is at best, your own fault.

All these things Biblical; all these things heavenly; our relationships with God, Jesus Christ, Mama and the Saints are all granted through God.  They take a lot of nurturing and this takes on a daily and hourly effort by each one of us. I've been known to know that I needed to do something, for instance, praying the Rosary but I put other things ahead of it making the excuse that I would do it later. More often than not, I forget. Shame on ME!!  

Today is Day 8 of the Novena to the Most Sacred Heart of Jesus. In this Novena, we are to mention our intentions for particular Graces.  I didn't realize that I would have to stop and think which was more important and which I should pray about and ask Jesus to grant.  I'll post today's Novena below so that you may have an opportunity to start today and say your own 9-day Novena to the Sacred Heart of Jesus.

God bless you and provide you with the Sanctifying and Actual Graces to keep the Sanctifying Graces alive and working within your soul for the duration of your life.  May you be welcomed into Heaven with the open arms of Jesus Christ and God, The Father.

Peace Be With You,

Peace be with you!

Let's pray that we might have hearts that are more and more conformed to Jesus'. 
Let's pray that we may have more loving hearts - that we may be like Christ in loving selflessly. That we may love others as much as Christ loves us. 
Here are the prayers for today:
Day 8 - The Sacred Heart of Jesus Novena
O my Jesus, you have said: “Truly I say to you, ask and you will receive, seek and you will find, knock and it will be opened to you.”
Behold I knock, I seek and ask for the grace of…
(Mention your Intention Here)
Our Father, Who art in Heaven, Hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread.  And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

Hail Mary, Full of Grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now, and at the hour of our death.

Glory be to the Father, to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. 
Sacred Heart of Jesus, I place all my trust in you.
O my Jesus, you have said: “Truly I say to you, if you ask anything of the Father in my name, he will give it to you.” Behold, in your name, I ask the Father for the grace of…
(Mention your Intention Here)
Our Father…
Hail Mary…
Glory Be to the Father…
Sacred Heart of Jesus, I place all my trust in you.
O my Jesus, you have said: “Truly I say to you, heaven and earth will pass away but my words will not pass away.” Encouraged by your infallible words I now ask for the grace of…
(Mention your Intention Here)
Our Father…
Hail Mary…
Glory Be to the Father…
Sacred Heart of Jesus, I place all my trust in you.
O Sacred Heart of Jesus, for whom it is impossible not to have compassion on the afflicted, have pity on us miserable sinners and grant us the grace which we ask of you, through the Sorrowful and Immaculate Heart of Mary, your tender Mother and ours.
Hail, holy Queen, Mother of mercy, our life, our sweetness and our hope.
To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve: to thee do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this vale of tears.
Turn then, most gracious advocate, thine eyes of mercy toward us, and after this our exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus, O clement, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary!
Pray for us O holy Mother of God, that we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.
St. Joseph, foster father of Jesus, pray for us.
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Tuesday, June 24, 2014


This Day's Thought from The Ranch
People often say, “I do not understand love of God; what is love of God?” It would be more exact to say, “cannot understand love in this world without love of God.”
Leo Tolstoy

This Day's Verse
“O Lord,” I prayed, “be kind and heal me, for I have confessed my sins.”
Psalm 41:4
The Living Bible

This Day's Smile
Who goes to bed and does not pray
Maketh two nights to every day.

George Herbert


Late have I loved You, Beauty so old and so new: late have I loved You. And see, You were within and I was in the external world and sought You there, and in my unlovely state I plunged into those lovely created things which You made. You were with me, and I was not with You. The lovely things kept me far from You, though if they did not have their existence in You, they had no existence at all. You called and cried out loud and shattered my deafness. You were radiant and resplendent, You put to flight my blindness. You were fragrant, and I drew in my breath and now pant after You. I tasted You, and I feel but hunger and thirst for You. You touched me, and I am set on fire to attain the peace which is Yours. For what am I to myself without You, but a guide to my own downfall?


Monday, June 23, 2014


Romans 5:2-5 "Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us."

I recall my mother's OB/GYN of many, many years who also confirmed my own first pregnancy.  Dr. A was a very kind and gentle man, and he ADORED my mother. He was more than a doctor; he was one of my parents' best friends.

Dr. A never married. And the most profound aspect of Dr. A's personality was his deep love of God and Jesus Christ.  He loved going to church and he worshipped God and tithed faithfully all of his life.

As he lay dying in a nursing home, we (my folks, husband and myself) went to visit Dr. A one day.  I recall him lying flat on his back and laughing and talking to us all, and then he asked for us to hold hands and gather in prayer. Dr. A recited prayer as we stood with bowed head holding hands in a semi-circle around his bed. In giving thanks, he quite plainly said "Thank you, Lord, that I am unable to walk, I love it so much and I praise you for sending this affliction to me."  I was a little stunned. I had never heard anyone thank God for an infirmity for which there was no cure.  I was taken aback.

Now re-read the verse above, especially "... we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us."

I had that opportunity in 2005 where I was deathly ill, but instead of thanking God, or rejoicing in my suffering producing endurance to character to hope, I was more angered every day because I had prayed quietly and faithfully for quite some time to no avail.  In fact, death would have been a welcomed outcome, that's how deep the pain in my spine was.

Of course, I figured it out, as I have written prior to now.  Rejoicing, instead of getting angry about our suffering is a very difficult thing to speak about to God, and especially with all sincerity.  How can we be happy about being infirmed? But when I read that this produces endurance, I think of all kinds of things, like the Olympics, for instance. Don't you feel the pain is tremendous no matter how much you work at it? But you have such desire for the good end result that your endurance kicks in.  Endurance produces character.  This is easily understood when you think of God-fearing people suffering through adversity in payer and becoming more and more adept to their circumstance. When something involving your health is new and its serious, it's unnerving. But when given time to have the unknown questions answered, to get your prognosis and find what you can do to help, besides just prayer, then ENDURANCE kicks in and you begin to fight back. When one loses endurance and the will to lick what is ailing them, hope can be lost. 

That brings us to Character, which was brought on my Endurance.  Character is the way someone thinks, feels and behaves; in other words, one's personality.  Specifically to the personality, a set of qualities that make a place or thing difference from other places of things.  Example?  You have learned through enduring your suffering to bring positive changes to your personality.  It could be that you no longer complain and whine constantly, but have the dignity to bear your suffering silently, or between you and God and your physician.

And Character brings one to HOPE! There is no shame in HOPE; hope for the world, for peace, for all people to turn to God and confess their sins in damaging this beautiful world full of a great many ethnicity's, where we could all love, learn to tolerate our differences, and live in Peace.  But the upheaval in the world, in foreign countries, in our own country, in our own towns can bring one down very quickly.  One MUST grab HOPE and hang onto it. HOPE was poured into us and there is no shame in hoping.  Hope goes hand-in-hand with faith. We have hope because we have faith in God and what The Bible tells us all.

Lord, I pray for those who have no HOPE in their lives. Please send The Holy Spirit or your warring angels to teach them to persevere, accept the challenges with grace and dignity; accept endurance into your life so that you can fight off the bad and only receive the good from Heaven; and everybody could use a dose of good CHARACTER!

It's all GOOD and it's all FROM GOD!

The Peace of the Lord be with you and yours,

Friday, June 20, 2014


The Bible grows more beautiful, as we grow in our understanding of it.
~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

I wish I could say that I have read The Bible cover-to-cover like so many, many people have. My mother read it 2 1/2 times before she had her stroke in 2010.  This is one goal I have yet to accomplish. I'm one that prays and then just opens the Bible and read wherever I land. Works for me, but I did begin reading the New Testament because my mother felt I would get discouraged and stop if I began with the Old Testament.

How about the story of what I HAVE accomplished?

As a child, I was raised in the Pentecostal faith.  In short, even as a young girl, I didn't like it much and understood it even less.  

In 1980, I married a man of Italian ethnicity.  I began attending Mass with him in an old, old church that his grandfather helped build.  It was beautiful.  I was a frog our of water for a while, but I watched, listened, followed the Missal and learned all the "motions" and anyone can READ a prayer.  I was so caught up in the regality of the Mass, that I was not listening all that much and my personal intentions were practically nil. And from Sunday to Sunday, life went went on normally, sin and all.

I had never prayed The Rosary and I didn't know the Stations of the Cross; the significance of bringing down the gifts as a family, the holiness of changing the bread and wine into the Body and Blood of Christ, literally. In fact, I argued with a cradle Catholic that it was only symbolism.

However, I loved the genuflection, the reference shown, the kneeling, and many, many years later, learned that the entire Mass is made of prayers both recited and sung, along with songs of prayer (hymns) and a Homily (I knew it as a sermon).  I learned that the Homily followed the Gospel and that usually it was tailored to fit the day's readings and how they apply to life today. The Catholic Church is God's Church. The authority for The Church was given to Peter by Jesus before he ascended into heaven.

This was an unbelievable treasure that I had found. I felt deeply that this is where God had led me and this is where I would stay, and I have.

About 25 years later, I was deathly ill with staph and a bone infection following a lumbar fusion surgery. I hurt so badly, it felt like the most painful death and a slow one at that. I started right after surgery praying for a quick and uneventful heal. I received the opposite. I went from praying every day to screaming to the skies "WHY WON'T YOU HELP ME?"  Look to my post of yesterday.  I still repeated sin after receiving forgiveness and God refused to listen to me and allowed me to learn a good lesson.  It lasted seven months and I went through what felt like hell to return to good health.  God had no intention of allowing me to die; His intention was to teach me "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth".

The message was very clear. It was late 2005 and I began my sojourn to become a REAL Catholic who dedicated her soul and heart to Jesus Christ, accepted and called upon The Holy Spirit, and respected God as the Almighty one of a kind, The Boss!  I tell people the story and end it with, "God brought me home, but not before he taught me a lesson that will stay with me forever."

So I do read my Bible and I skip around the New Testament; I'm reading three books at once: the life of St. Theresa of Avila, St. Theresa of Lisieux, and The Catholic Interpretation of Revelations.  Not to forget that I have this summer's edition of LIFE magazine and it is full of "Two New Saints for the People", Pope John XXIII and Pope John Paul II.  It's a book in and of itself, and it has photographs of these two great men as babies and their life stories and how they came to the priesthood as their vocation.

AND, I try to find interesting things to say to YOU, but feel so inadequate most times.  If I can just capture one soul for Christ every day, that is 365 souls a year! Wouldn't that be grand?  I believe in the Marian Apparitions and pay attention to Our Lady's words.  I was called to be a Disciple for Christ and to bring as many souls as possible to Jesus.  I take Our Lady's warnings and love and requests quite seriously.

Bottom line, if I will read my Bible more and more, I will come to understand it more than reading it in piecemeal.  Knowledge is power.  I want my power to bring souls to Christ and then to heaven; I want to hold that dying hand and give them permission to go if they see Jesus coming for them, I still want to sing but our Church choir is quite accomplished and I'm afraid that it is a huge commitment.  I must do something to give back - the choir keeps tugging at me. They have made a CD and they have appeared at Madision Square Garden.  How wonderful for them all.  Or I could become a Eucharistic Minister but I just feel that my voice was meant for Christ's ears and that is wherein my heart and desire lay.  How great Thou Are!

The Peace of the Lord, Jesus Christ, be with you,

Wednesday, June 18, 2014


When I read the book of Isaiah, I feel as though this is God's first warning to the generation of The New Testament.  This book is filled with God's words and his promises, AND His reproach to the world regarding certain behaviors.  To me, it is a foreshadowing of the present day and forward to the end of days.

God was then and remains angry with those whose hands are "filthy with sin."  People lie, cheat, murder, steal, and yet they feel no tug from their consciences that this might just take away their salvation.

God is awake all of the time, he hears all of the time, he forgives the multitudes; BUT, if you continue to ask forgiveness (or not) and continue to commit the sin, God turns his head away from you and refuses to listen to your confession and grants no forgiveness.  This is something that I have learned from talking to and then watching numerous Catholic friends. Over time, I see them continuing in their sinful ways.

Do you ever wonder why people do bad things that hurt you or your feelings, yet they get away with it? God is not punishing them because you continue to sin.  In my view, this means you're getting your just punishment.  When I read this, I thought about myself.  Over my life, I have had trial after trial and I have prayed endlessly to God and Jesus Christ to save me.  But no answers came.  Why?  Because I am a sinner, but a few years ago I was much, much worse a sinner than I am now.  I accept that all people are sinners. But, I didn't pay attention to what I did or said or the hurt that I inflicted; only to what others did to me.  I felt pretty stupid praying for years and nothing happening.

Then I changed my life. I cleansed myself of many sinful ways and began to study and read about God and Jesus Christ, including my beloved Holy Bible.  To my amazement, my world began to shift for the better and I have learned some huge lessons. I know that I am staying on the narrow path to Heaven; my life is richer in love and kindness, and I want more than anything to see Jesus greeting me on the final yards of the path to the Gates into God's Kingdom.

God saw me struggling and that no one came to aid me, so He has come to my aid many times. I have asked him to come and save me; however, there are too numerous to count the times that God intervenes and one doesn't even give Him a thought.  Ask my friends what I say when I am almost periled and then saved at the last moment, I say "Thank you God, thank you Jesus!"
"Arise, my people! Let your light shine for all the nations to see! For the Glory of the Lord is streaming from you.  Darkness as black as night shall cover all the peoples of the earth, but the Glory of the Lord will shine from you............"  Isaiah 60:1-2
Remember the song that you were most likely taught as a young child, This Little Light of Mine, I'm gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.

The thing that is not mentioned in Isaiah is that God would have a son born to a woman on earth, that He would be named "Jesus", and that he would walk the cities carrying the good word of his Father to all people who wanted to listen.  Do you not feel that God knew what he was doing?  He knew that his Son would suffer the most horrible pain, mockery, and death that one of today's world could not fully fathom.  This is when I bought, by the way, the DVD of  "The Passion". This film gave me the very gruesome details of what my Jesus went through, and to know that he went through this for me and you and all people - it's difficult to comprehend in today's world.

I have the sense that God was terribly hurt.  He loved Jesus more than anything, just as we love our children, and He tried this path desperately hoping that people would open their eyes and cease their sinful ways on this beautiful earth that he had created. I'm sure He shook his head in disbelief when he destroy the earth by water, and the whole debacle picked up where it left off.

If my child knelt at a rock and begged me to let this cup pass me by, I could not refuse. God was faced with that, and do you not believe that God wanted more than anything to just take his Son to Heaven right then and there?  Oh, the enormity of it all, the anguish, the disappointment - he instructed his Son as to what to teach people and Jesus Christ was very gifted at preaching. He attracted people by the thousands once the word got around.

Yet, Jesus asked for nothing, EXCEPT for all to give up sinfulness and follow him in the Paths of Righteousness.  And, unfortunately, there were those of his own ethnicity who felt threatened by Him, the elders of the Church and even Kings.

My dear Jesus, it hurts my heart every time those images appear in my mind, yet I am so very grateful that this was THE ultimate sacrifice, and it has been followed by many, in the name of Christ, in war, and in murder (abortion!!).  I am saddened that your Father has been so disappointed by this beautiful world full of beautiful people who know and love Him, and there are just as many who are bent on murder and destruction.  I realize that I can only do so much, but that includes letting Your Love Shine from within me. I do not preach or try to force my ways upon others where it concerns you; I try to let it shine, let it shine, let it shine. Through my actions, my way of life, my family, my kindnesses to strangers - this I do in hoping that You will shine from within me.  I am perplexed at sales clerks, etc., who get all bumfuzzled and are at a loss for words when I say, "Thank you, have a blessed day."  Something is very wrong, but then, we know that.

You have to decide if you are going to shine for Jesus Christ, share his love and bring souls to Him, or are you going to do nothing?  Are you going to continue to gossip about people around you, and yes, even in the Holy Sanctuary of the Church?  Yes, I've overheard a lot there and I have to fight within myself and pray, pray, pray to not step up and say, "Remember where you are? Can you continue this someplace else?"

Abortion.  It is one of the most horrifying things that has ever been sanctioned by law.  Yes, IT IS MURDER! If this baby has a heartbeat, and they do very early, then it is a living being and people are getting paid to MURDER these children.  How can you stand for it? I don't understand! Yes there are wars, between ADULT people and decisions concerning this are also those of ADULT PEOPLE.

YOU have a decision: If you don't want a baby, DON'T ENGAGE IN SEXUAL CONDUCT or you can buy condoms at every drugstore and Stop & Go and they are on every corner (so it seems).  No, contraception is only another "option", but still doesn't make it right.  If you are single, young, older, whatever - if you do not want a child, DO NOT ENGAGE IN SEXUAL ACTIVITY.

Now I beg of you, for Jesus Christ, the Father and the World, please, Let it Shine!

Monday, June 16, 2014


We did an upgrade on our mobile phones last week that included a free tablet! What a great deal!

My computer mouse has been CRAZY along with some other aggravating issues, and I've stuck with these for a year. But since I now have the tablet, I felt that I could drop off my laptop for diagnostics and a fix.

Good thing because there were 2 viruses found that probably caused the insanity of the mouse AND ME! They checked and cleaned out/up, and I will pick it up today.

Do you ever think about how dependent you and your family are on electronics?  We are insane :-)

All this to say that I will be in full operation this evening. It is my wish to create written pieces that will inspire and give support to the issues in their lives of my readers that stump them, and how we can be more Christlike in our behavior and words.

I've set an initial goal of 3-4 posts per week, Sometimes, more. So I do ask humbly for your prayers and patience.

With all Christian love,

Thursday, June 12, 2014


Over the last five (5) years, I have lived in complete agony over a family member, my son.  I have prayed like the wind, cried like a waterfall, and no answer came. I felt awful for what he had done, the mistakes he made that were not from the young man that I had raised.  They affected his entire life, including job status, and at every application for a job in his field, I just knew that someone was blackballing him due to his indiscretions, and he knew also.

My son lost his home and moved in with his dad.  He slept a lot and it continues.  It is his escape hatch from the demons that plague his conscience. And, from being humiliated in an interview where the head man knew he was not going to hire him.  He let him dress up nice and drive an hour for his interview and dressed him down in front of four other officers.  He was so dejected, he came home and jerked his cross made from nails that I had gifted him years before. His words were, "God hasn't done anything for me, so I don't need Him either!"

Oh boy, this was big and I immediately grabbed my son and put my arms around him and told him, "you cannot fight with God; you will never win."  I cried at what he said, and I talked to him at length. We fixed his cross and he put it back on and asked for FORGIVENESS.

Nevertheless, God had some lessons, obviously, that he needed to put my son through before he would begin his life anew.  Me, still praying and crying and begging God, which was wrong and unnecessary. He knew how I felt, and begging is not the right thing.  THY WILL BE DONE is the RIGHT THING. Ask and you shall receive, "when I feel that the timing is right and your son has learned his lessons."

He continued to sleep a lot, look for jobs and not get them, took test after test and was in the top 4 in scoring on all, but still, no hire.  His self-esteem bottomed out.  How can a Mother watch her child go through such agony? It was the hardest thing I've ever experienced.  Instead of trying to help through LOVING HIM, I was telling him "you should do [this or that]" constantly. It got to the point where he would not answer my calls nor see me much, and when he did, he didn't react to me the same loving way that he used to.

This all caused deep problems in my marriage because I was an ENABLER and I couldn't stop it. But I knew that if I didn't, I would lose everything.

My Rosaries and prayers from one Mother to another got me through.  "Mama" is so loving and I read the apparitions on the days when she appears.  In these, it was as if she was speaking to me directly. I learned a LOT from Mama, and I grew to have such deep love and regard for her.  I speak to her every day and pray for her intercessions with regard to my son.

The Holy Spirit came to me at my request and lives within me.  He began putting the words into my head that were answers to many, many questions and agonizing that I had been going through.  My Guardian Angel, Barnard, began to do little things to let me know he was there; hence, I talk out loud to him and Mama and Christ all the time.  I acknowledge The Holy Spirit whenever a solution or a thought comes that lifts me out of the doldrums.

Recently, a most precious and loving friend, who is of another faith, but is my spiritual adviser, counselor and friend used his vast knowledge of The Bible to try and get me to let go and let my son go through what he needed to go through, and to STOP the beating up of myself over his situation.  It has taken most of a year, but I have found peace.  I let go of both grown children, for they say that I need to mind my own business. And so I have learned to practice that advice.  Instead, I make suggestions with love and not the bearing down kind any longer.

My special friend, the most special I have ever known, did an all-night prayer vigil for me and my problems (including my son).  The next day, my son received a call from a national construction company advising him that he'd been hired, and making more money than he's ever made in his life.  I'm elated, thankful, completely overflowing with gratitude.  I have talked to him about this new beginning and the do's and don't's.  He is quite excited, as we all are, but especially me.  I know in my heart that this vigil finally pushed God's decision to a conclusion.  To me, it is a divine intervention, a miracle.

We all go through things in life and we refuse to accept God's Will.  This 5-year period has taught me that in some matters, God has His own way of dealing with things.  He, I'm sure, didn't like seeing all the agony, but He used Tough Love on me and my son.

I know now, Lord.  I have learned and I am so very thankful to you, Jesus, The Holy Spirit, and Mama, along with all the Saints I called upon, especially St. Theresa of Liseux

I have changed, my marriage is terrific, my son is happy about starting anew, and I know that I will never grow so distressed over anything like this again.  I have a friend who says "pray it up and give it to God and then forget about it."  I wondered years ago "how can she do this?"  I tried and failed too many times to count, but now I know how.

This is difficult to conclude, but I think I want you to know that you should give it to God and then forget about it, you should pray to The Holy Trinity and Our Lady, and your patron Saint daily.  Read your Bible; it's amazing how I read it now with great interest and amazed at how it is like I'm reading something that was written just for me over 2,000 years ago.

All my love and prayers to each of you who have come here,