Tuesday, July 30, 2013


I will tell you something that you probably would never envision of "Abbey": I suffer from the diseases of depression and anxiety. I am not one of those people who can be on some medication for 6 weeks and then stop taking it.  My depression is not caused by a life situation.  Rather, it is in our family gene pool.  My sister and both her children suffer some form of depression and anxiety, and me and both my children suffer.  I can only pray that it will not be passed down to my grandchildren, but that is out of my control.

Depression affects the lives of approximately 15 million adults in the United States.  Even though many people with depression have taken an antidepressant, it's not uncommon for some to still experience symptoms of depression (often called "unresolved" symptoms of depression).

A large study showed that 2 out of 3 people taking an antidepressant still experienced unresolved symptoms of depression.

I'd like to share some information about depression with you.

Understanding Depression

Major depressive disorder (depression) is a serious medical condition with a broad range of symptoms.
You may have major depressive disorder (MDD) if, for more than 2 weeks, you've been experiencing 5 or more of the diagnostic symptoms of depression found in the chart below. One of the symptoms must be either sadness or loss of interest, and the symptoms should clearly interfere with your life. Additionally, you may have some of the associated symptoms of depression. These symptoms alone do not mean you have depression. If you experience any of these symptoms, consult your doctor.
  • Diagnostic Symptoms of
    Depression in Adults
  • Emotional Symptoms:
  • Sadness
  • Loss of interest in things                      
    you once enjoyed
  • Thoughts of death or suicide*
  • Feelings of guilt or
  • Physical Symptoms:
  • Restlessness or slowness of
    speech, thought, or activity
  • Trouble concentrating or
    making decisions
  • Lack of energy
  • Changes in weight/appetite
  • Changes in sleep

  • Associated Symptoms
    of Depression
  • Aches and pains
  • Tearfulness
  • Excessive worry over
    physical health
  • Dwelling on negative
  • Constantly turning
    things over in your mind
  • Irritability
  • Anxiety
  • Phobias

Where Does Depression Hurt?

Someone with depression might think or say any of the following:
  • "I feel sad all the time and just don't feel like myself."
  • "I don't enjoy being with my friends or doing any of the things I usually love to do."
  • "Sometimes I feel like my life is not worth living anymore.*"
  • "I feel like I don't have any energy."
  • "I'm not really interested in eating."
  • "Even after a long day, I still feel restless."
  • "I feel so indecisive and I can't make any decisions."
  • "I just feel so worthless.".

Many people suffer in silence with depression. Some are ashamed or afraid to seek help; others try to downplay the severity of their symptoms. It’s important to remember that depression isn’t something that’s "all in your head."

Back to Abbey:  I have never had thoughts of hurting myself and I cannot wrap my mind around someone who is so depressed that they would end their life.  I just know that my faith in God is such that I feel blessed to not suffer with that type of battle within me.  I have been under the care of a wonderful psychiatrist and a counselor who holds a Phd. for some time now.

I have been in and out of therapy for 25 years.  I'm used to it, but it doesn't mean I can handle it or even because I know the "why" of it, that my mind can control it - it can't. If only I could control it.

I'm basically a very happy person and the life of the party.  Most of the time, I do very well.  But things happen, life changes occur, relationship problems surface .... and before you know it, you're out of control.  That's when I seek help from my qualified caretakers.  And the "cure" takes a while and will never be permanent, I know that.

My husband is "normal", the way I wish I were.  He doesn't "understand" depression, but he deals with my depression as best he can.  He's always been very supportive and if not for him, I don't know what I'd do or where I'd be.

I found the following information and .Scriptures relative to depression on the internet:

Anxiety in a man’s heart weighs it down (depression), but a good word cheers it up.  

Depression is the ‘feeling‘ of hopelessness. The lack of a ‘future positive possibility’ robs you of your motivation and strength. The good Word of God and the good word of others to you can change the outlook and condition or your heart. Fight for God’s outlook with all you have. Fight it with the Word of God. (Also, confess the scriptures on Hopelessness.) Anyone who is among the living has hope.

Deuteronomy 31:8 – The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.

Deuteronomy 33:27 – The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms.

2 Samuel 22:17-22 – He sent from above, he took me; he drew me out of many waters; (18) He delivered me from my strong enemy, and from them that hated me: for they were too strong for me. (19) They prevented me in the day of my calamity: but the Lord was my stay. (20) He brought me forth also into a large place: he delivered me, because he delighted in me. (21) The Lord rewarded me according to my righteousness: according to the cleanness of my hands hath he recompensed me. (22) For I have kept the ways of the Lord, and have not wickedly departed from my God.

2 Samuel 22:29 – You are my lamp O Lord; the Lord turns my darkness into light.

Ecclesiastes 9:4 – Anyone who is among the living has hope.

Psalms 9:9 – The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble.

Psalm 27:14 -  Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and He shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.

Psalm 31:22,24 – You heard my cry for mercy when I called to you for help… Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord.

Psalm 34:18, 19 – The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. (19) A righteous man may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all.

Psalm 37:23-24 – If the Lord delights in a man’s way, he makes his steps firm; though he stumbles, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hand.

Psalm 43:5 – Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God.

Psalm 55:22 – Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall.

Psalm 62:5 – Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him.

Psalm 126:5 – Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy.

Psalm 143:7-8 – Answer me quickly, O Lord; my spirit fails. Do not hide your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the pit. Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I’ll lift up my soul.

Psalm 147:3 – He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

Psalm 145:14 – The LORD upholds all those who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down.

Proverbs 12:25 – Anxiety in a man’s heart weighs it down (depression), but a good word cheers it up.

Isaiah 26:3-4, Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee: because he trusts in Thee. Trust ye in the LORD for ever: for in the LORD JEHOVAH is everlasting strength. (Perfect means complete. If I keep my part of the promise by staying steadfastly focused on the Lord Jesus Christ, He will keep His promise to give me His perfect peace. See also Philippians 4:6-7 below)

Isaiah 35:10 – And the ransomed of the Lord will return. They will enter Zion with singing; everlasting joy will crown their heads. Gladness and joy will overtake them, and sorrow and sighing will flee away

Isaiah 40:31, But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

Isaiah 53:4 – Surely he took up our sicknesses and carried our sorrows.

Mark 9:23 – Everything is possible for him who believes.

Romans 4:18-22  – Who against hope believed in hope, that he might become the father of many nations, according to that which was spoken, so shall they seed be. (19) And being not weak in faith, he considered not his own body now dead, when he was about an hundred years old, neither yet the deadness of Sarah’s womb: (20) He staggered not at the promise of God through unbelief; but was strong in faith, giving glory to God. (21) And being fully persuaded that, what he had promised, he was able to perform. (22) And therefore it was imputed to him for righteousness.

Romans 15:13 – May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

II Corinthians 7:6-7  – Nevertheless God, that comforts, those that are depressed, comforted us by the coming of Titus; (7) And not by his coming only, but by the consolation wherewith he was comforted in you, when he told us your earnest desire, your mourning, your fervent mind toward me; so that I rejoiced the more.

Philippians 4:6-7 – Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

James 4:8 – Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.

James 4:10 – Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.

2 Peter 2:9 – The Lord knows how to rescue godly men from trials.

1 Peter 4:12 – Dear Friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you.

1 Peter 4:13 – But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed

1 Peter 5:7 – Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.


O Christ Jesus,
when all is darkness
and we feel our weakness and helplessness,
give us the sense of Your presence,
Your love, and Your strength.
Help us to have perfect trust
in Your protecting love
and strengthening power,
so that nothing may frighten or worry us,
for, living close to You,
we shall see Your hand,
Your purpose, Your will through all things.

By Saint Ignatius of Loyola

Please, may I have your prayers for my depression.  And also, please give me your thoughts in the comment section below. 
God bless you ††† 

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